Sunday, July 27, 2003
tomorrow i'm gonna wear something outrageous cos i canthe day after i'm going to kiss someone cos i can but if i don't find anyone that'll be okay too
this weekend i'm gonna go watch a movie cos i'm meeting friends
august twenty first i'm gonna be on an airplane cos i need to study and go back to school
i have about fort five days before school starts and that's enough time for some people to drop fifty pounds isn't that scary i know a girl who lost eleven pounds in nine days while she was already underweight i puke once i get a crashing headache so i can't stick foreign objects in my throat to lose weight and that's kind of good because puking is really gross it leaves a smell on your hands but anyway the girl abused laxatives and diuretics and she had blue pee or maybe that was someone else okay
here's a confession i like being in the u.s. partially because everyone in korea is so thin and they make me feel fat
until i realized that they are mostly flab and will be really chubby or just weird looking when they're in their thirties and forties well their mid-ages
that sounds so old and lame mid-ages i mean but actually i will be really glamorous and fun and have a great life when i am in my early forties i think it'll be my heyday i think it should be everyone's heyday and my dad is in his forties and i think he is much better now in every single way than he was in his thirties even the slight potbelly he's getting now
children are the best hands down over anything else
babies babies babies if you're holding babies you will immediately be attractive to the female sex i know there's nothing like cute boys holding cute babies to make me ooh and ah
really it is even making me hit on a 16 year old whom i've known a while but only started being attracted to last week cos i saw him holding his lil bro and this is nice because i didn't initiate it it just creeped up on me
really two years isn't that big a difference okay it is and i've always found boys my age to be really immature and unattractive but see babies immediately make you seem like the stable fatherly type and for girls like me who are anything but womanly but also really maternal at the same time i don't really get that i'm going to be such a bad mother to my princessy daughter when she dresses in pink lace actually no i'm not i'm going to be an awesome mom ahhh i just imagined my own daughter calling me mom and that sent waves of happiness you cannot imagine and whatever i felt just now i'm going to feel a hundred times more when it actually happens and i think i understand my mother a little better now that makes me happier than plasticine noses and now i want to lie down and think of pretty names for my daughter so please go away and think and then send me suggestions.
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