Friday, December 31, 2004
i talked to noah on the phone for nearly 90 minutes tonight and still didn't talk to him about what i meant to talk to him about, partially because i don't trust myself and partially because the phone kept on dying. it's not good to talk to someone about serious things when they're on vacation anyway. one part of me thinks it might be better to wait until school starts because i love the boy but right now i haven't seen anyone in a while so i might be feeling some things slightly more intensely than i might if i were surrounded with people all the time.i also talked to sunny online for a bit and she's so nice and chill and just like, not overcome with her own emotional burden that it's quite refreshing. after all my friends who wear their hearts on their sleeves and guitar picks and whose drug habits are their hearts and souls, she's so... healthy? that's not the right word but whatever. no one sees this anyway.
i also loooove beck.
reason #420 that i would have a crush on myself if i weren't, well, me: last night at 4:47am i could not fall asleep and so listened to allen ginsberg reading howl four times over as my lullaby.
this is why my school friends, i.e. people is see every day, don't see this.
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